mot de manda

why this topic, why today?
1. because of the laughter today
2. because it’s not only me who suddenly giggle in the middle of class
3. because when i was questioned and end up in gathering all the pieces of past-happiness, i feel excitement and reasons why i should be thankful of.

and also, the french way of answering to the questions: pourquoi pas? or why not?

ok, the laughter. it was so free that i felt the person might be really happy on that time. i was indeed. but anyway, does the person feel happy? nobody knows, but him. my part is to wonder - how long the happiness, if it ever exist, could stay in his memory?

one might think it depends on the significance. but really, is it as simple as that? in some stories that i heard, little tiny silly things happen to be the spice of the life. hence, i don’t know for sure the reason, but for sure significance is not always significant then.

why i want to know the reasonings why certain moments are more favored to come to one’s mind when the question comes is to try to overlook on my happy moments and try to categorize them based on a certain logic.

nothing is logical though. no order. one is something that i was and am really happy like in a fantasy - with a clear physical symptoms heart beat and breath to replace the excitements. while some are vague. it was so great, then flat, then when it comes to re-think about it, yeah that was one of the best moments in my life. some are the great ones but stored in brain cells untouched for such a long time.

in any cases, how would we know the real ones? im not writing here the right answers. but i guess, it includes the ones that make you giggle for a while, or continuosly smile all day. and also, the ones that the more i think about the more happy i am :).

if, you are still reading this writing, in your mind, are you thinking any of happy moments or so called best moments of your life? what’s that?

well, for me, another pieces of puzzles, when this question kicks in again the future, is foreseen.

[a piece due to the struck of happiness-lightning =) ]

of anything.

i was always amazed with people who could actually see the positivities on any actions. lately, professionnally described ones.

the way i see it, it’s not easy. well, for sure, it wouldn’t be easy to admit (by saying) something that is not coherent to our principle, would it? for me, yes it is not easy. so, i could say that it is not easy to say positivities if  we, or rather i, do not either see, or agree or even put some faith on that positivities. in easier-to-digest words, if it’s spontaneous / made-up.

if i go back to the title, then i have to be taking the other side now. it isn’t easy either to see the negatives ones, sometimes. because we don’t always believe in what public condemn as bad. but, i must say that in most of the cases, i did it indeed, without any trouble. but quickly, again, it’s not done well - i believe. think about it, why would we think on the negativities, if indeed, nothing could be done afterwards.

so yes, it is difficult to do any one of them. so, maybe, im just guessing here, it would be much easier to be in neutral line. silence is gold. yeah, standing just in the boundary. moving as far as the space given by the boundary. it sounds simpler, and yet simple means easy.

but afterall, it is only easy till the emotion starts to participate. then, all the three options are not any good. it is not a fun way to procastinate and waste energy on, for sure.