mot de manda

a question that i hope i can answer it right upfront besides the thousand reasons i have :

- today, the guy close my LAB, how i can produce my small stent.

- feel down after checking my bank account. gosh, i need free and automatic top-up machine

- i can’t stop myself from surfing…

- since it’s weekend, shouldn’t i relax?

then why not in the past few weekdays, Manda?

- daytime i cant be bothered by this

- night time is sleeping time

- even i tried, i have been and am really tired

- i only have time to switch on my laptop, open the ms word, solidworks n it’s already the bedtime

- and my laptop is too small;

- i had to accompany my visitors, of course.

- i always chat with you guys…(no, no, i enjoy it =))

- you gave me interesting pages to read (hint: Datta, =p!)

- i have to watch gilmore girls

- i just can’t, i have nothing in mind, i have nothing to write..

- my brain keeps telling me nothing to write….

no, no, it’s just me trying and dreaming to get my FYP done without doing it.

see the title? it sounds like i have too many choices that i am confused which one is the good one, doesn’t it? hehe, it’s not!

making a choice had been a very difficult thing to me. but now, it’s been not in the first thing i can’t do. getting better and better i can say. last question i had, ‘is it the matter of life that you hardly choose?’. *blush* it’s not… i told the person everything and the helps went in =). thank you.

that’s settled. but again, as it’s not about the whole life that i had, and as normal life will have a lot of things, new things come up to me. and i am stuck stop a while to think these new things. i like the way how they speed up coming to me. it’s so perfect. i can’t ask better timing, enough to delay my FYP =p.

anyway, i am thinking over and over again about this. i do realize that our lives is decided by all the choices that we have made. the consequences are ready to soak in right after the decision or maybe later without any notice. consequences might not always be the cases. we do have positivities. always.

but when a concern arise, it remains as it is. and yet, it is true with the facts all around us. for me, i just try to change my stand and stay there to make myself see it from that way.

but like i always do believe, no one could choose the things for you. it has to be you. for me, it has to be and can only be myself who decides.

a quote from ugly betty "if this is the life you have chosen, i have no interest in knowing you". this is the risk of a decision that one’s made.mine has not that big impact i guess.

i do want to write a proper piece, but i can’t.. FYP is waiting *sigh*

i do want to thank mom n dad for being supportive as always. i am surprised and yet happy. as i wrote before, i will first make sure that things will work out for me, then for everyone. =)

everyone just finished their lunch and yet keeps talking about the table topic of the day. chit chat here n there, laugh to your right n left. no one moves yet, they are so keen to wait about the dessert. but, no one can start until the boss come.

while waiting, the youngest girl asked the lady sitting next to her, what are so special about today that we have a cake? "well, we’ll always have cake for any reason. when one stops buying food from his favorite stall, then we got a cake" she said.

as soon as the boss comes, the cake is out. when the glass in front of the youngest is replaced by the cake. then the youngest know what’s so special today. it’s definitely not for compensation for one doesn’t have his favorite food.

-the end-