mot de manda

if you ask me now, i want to go back Indonesia n do unimportant saloon-ing everyday =p. or i want to go faint, for a while, just for few hours. besides i haven’t tried it yet, it’s crucial if i can feel it this afternoon *tough day*. anyway, it’s just so true what Mazlinah told me, it’s just escaping the problems. I shouldn’t hope that. =)

I want to do bungee jumping.

I want to go back to France, and Europe =p

I want to eat junk food right now

I want to not worry of anything

But no, not that… what do i really want to do? it’s ashame that i haven’t known yet… it’s not that because it changed. but it’s not really standing firmly yet. i wanted to be a doctor, or around doctor. i didn’t want to continue master in research, but then now i spell it out uncosciously that i will continue my study after working - so that i can escape *again* =p. yeah yeah… i, now, more into fun, endless fun. i like more freedom, disorder, and avoid rules.  THis question strikes me when a friend told me that she’d love to go France to learn patisserie. Wow, that’s different!!! and interesting.. from engineering to be cooker and entrepreneur. she can stand out there to be different as she wants to. with all her story, i found similarities. we do not liking one thing, that exists everywhere. the different is, i like to try get along with that (still not accepting yet, like to mumble about it) but she, can decide that she doesn’t want to get involve too much of it. this leads her to her decision - with solution of course. i do really appreciate how she thinks. positive energy!

i had this running around my mind this week. it’s about what i want. i don’t know yet whether it’s just due to my rebillious soul, or fed up with environment. or it’s another faint-type solution. But it does sound fun. i’d love to do it =). i can’t hope much for support as it’s been impossible. but if your daughter is happy coz it’s something that she wants, won’t you still not letting her go mom, dad? it’s by nature that i always have this kind of thinking… should i stop n change it here to make you guys happy… ok, we’ll see for better alternative offered  along the road to be seeked. =)

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