mot de manda

It’s been one month + after the world cup. Late upload but these are some photos when i was in Berlin for the final. Can’t afford to go to the stadium ^^, we just went to the FanFest in Berlin. It’s hold at centre of Berlin, Brandenburg Gate, along the road, until the Nazi/Hitler statue (?) =p.  It’s a very BIG area, with three big flat screens (kaya layar tancep bersama bule2).  But still, the people fully occupied the whole BIG areas i mentioned before. It’s just so crowded that it will be very interesting if the two groups of fan end up with fighting… So glad, we had enough oxygen that time.

Come to my surprise that i still can see my friend, Oky, from SGU. I happened to look at him when he passed by. Sebanyak itu orang… Huhu….

Arrived at the night and stay overnight for the following final -Italy vs France! Too bad that France lose. But i did shout, Allez les blue…=). C’est interessant. Mais, encore je ne suis pas un maniaque du foot. Pas encore.

morning scene at orchard road… empty road with filling old chang kee =)

if you ask me now, i want to go back Indonesia n do unimportant saloon-ing everyday =p. or i want to go faint, for a while, just for few hours. besides i haven’t tried it yet, it’s crucial if i can feel it this afternoon *tough day*. anyway, it’s just so true what Mazlinah told me, it’s just escaping the problems. I shouldn’t hope that. =)

I want to do bungee jumping.

I want to go back to France, and Europe =p

I want to eat junk food right now

I want to not worry of anything

But no, not that… what do i really want to do? it’s ashame that i haven’t known yet… it’s not that because it changed. but it’s not really standing firmly yet. i wanted to be a doctor, or around doctor. i didn’t want to continue master in research, but then now i spell it out uncosciously that i will continue my study after working - so that i can escape *again* =p. yeah yeah… i, now, more into fun, endless fun. i like more freedom, disorder, and avoid rules.  THis question strikes me when a friend told me that she’d love to go France to learn patisserie. Wow, that’s different!!! and interesting.. from engineering to be cooker and entrepreneur. she can stand out there to be different as she wants to. with all her story, i found similarities. we do not liking one thing, that exists everywhere. the different is, i like to try get along with that (still not accepting yet, like to mumble about it) but she, can decide that she doesn’t want to get involve too much of it. this leads her to her decision - with solution of course. i do really appreciate how she thinks. positive energy!

i had this running around my mind this week. it’s about what i want. i don’t know yet whether it’s just due to my rebillious soul, or fed up with environment. or it’s another faint-type solution. But it does sound fun. i’d love to do it =). i can’t hope much for support as it’s been impossible. but if your daughter is happy coz it’s something that she wants, won’t you still not letting her go mom, dad? it’s by nature that i always have this kind of thinking… should i stop n change it here to make you guys happy… ok, we’ll see for better alternative offered  along the road to be seeked. =)

There’s this guy, bought a mountain bicycle and went with his family to the mountainbiking. After coming back, he used this bike in the normal road. Something wrong with the bike, it broke that he fell with his head down. He came under comma condition for 12 months. Then after he awake, he no longer could remember anything. He suffered amnesia. He forgot of all his wife and children.

I found this as a tragic story. I couldn’t imagine this happens to the people I love. I was already stoned after knowing such a story. 12 months under comma…What’s the meaning behind it…For him or for family. I couldn’t understand. But one thing for sure, it makes me realize, we never know what happens next. Saying that, live your life to the fullest! (reminds me of Erwin =p)

supposed perspective of the story : for all engineers, never underestimate the safety factor of any device or system! it can damage a life. For the bike riders, do be careful.

I have been  thinking of description of a friend, here one that one of my friends, Daren gave me :

A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift.

A friend is someone we treasure for our friendship is a gift.

A friend is someone who fills our lives with beauty, joy, and grace.

And makes the whole world we live in a better and happier place.

-Jean Kyler McManus-

It crossed my mind. Coz im talking with old friend of mine, Jack. It’s weird, but he happens to be there when I am in not too good mood. Maybe, because he’s reachable then I have bad mood? Haha, kidding Jack. But serious, when you are there, it’s always the time I need the cheers and special lift for spirit =p. The talk did work - such a relief. Let’s call it unlucky of you always meeting me in the ‘down’. Not saying you had great feeling, but it’s always the case. Thanks!! But, i do feel bad. Hope i can have a chance to play that friend role when it’s needed.

Small wish and note: Good luck for your coming exam! =) And do be a good civil servant ;)! Hehehe…

a common word that people say it out too much. with all the definitions that each of us made, it’s a big term. at least for me.

a person added a "description" of a friend to me, they are those who made you the first to know about something and discuss the matter with. it’s a privillege or the thing that make them different from the strangers we know. when a person chooses not to do that, would you stop calling them friends? not necessarily, cause when a person say he’s a friend to a another person, it must be clearly that he’s a friend of his definition of friend and of course treat others as what they think a friend would do.

be the first to know, would you feel special? nah.. it’s just the matter of time that will melt all the covers away and allows the wind to change the content.

what would have you done? hiking to the highest mountain? or diving in the deepest sea? or fighting in one of the World War? it might seem a very long period, 100years. but i believe, as a never-feeling-satisfied creature, we will see more the negatives than the positives even if we could live that long in this world. it is still not enough for us to do something that we really want to do. be it not having the chance, or were forced to leave the chance given.  humans are too good to find reasonings.

100 years is long.if at 2 you could have already talked, given arguments when you were 3, spoken in front of publics when you were 18. Leading a company well at 30 wouldn’t be any problem. Being a good parents, nurturing your children to start their own family at your 50s, what we couldn’t have done when we were 100? We should keep progressing with our skills right… This thinking is too simple. But now, i prefer to think the simplest things that it could be.No arguing at this point. I know where it would lead.

and, what will you do in your 100th birthday? if i could enjoy my 100th years, it might be with my family (imagining myself trying really hard to remember the names of my loving great grandchildren ^^). or with my friends, talking nonsense, because we can’t really remember anything well. or sitting alone, trying hard assuring myself, that that day was my birthday. hope it won’t be the last case. surrounded by the cheers is a great gift rather than choice that i could make in such old condition. if i could really keep myself to be conscious of everything till that late age, i would be happy to do bungee-jumping or see fireworks. but when everything seems to be the same, essentially, seeing cheers around would be enough.

if i am destined to celebrate my 100years, i do hope i will be still healthy by the time then. =)

written after coming to Eyang Bodin’s 100 years birthday party.

Happy Birthday Eyang…