mot de manda

seeing my niece here, reminds me with the childhood. well more or less everything changes, and it keeps changing now. but one thing remains, not changing, the hope and wishes which altogether built up the world of my fairytale. One thing to realize, everyone at least crosses by that moment once. to keep it until this moment or not is a matter of choice.

A friend of mine, keeps saying that i live in my own world, with my own (ideal) fairy tale for almost every matter of life. To know that friend, it seems just something i take for granted. I know it’s not true. But to convince one, it’s again not that easy. Everyone’s unique. Holding almost everyone else’s heart doesn’t mean holding everyone’s.

But tell me for real, if most everyone i know, experiences the scene that i have in my fairytale, do we still call it fairy tale? I think i stop calling it fairy tale. It’s just another logic way of thinking, Yes it is. Well, those people might just be lucky. But like lucky doesn’t come again and again. Not everyone’s lucky. At the same time, Continously. Maybe, again, I wouldn’t be that lucky as my friends are. You know, people may just slip around in unexpected time. But though, it’s a matter of choice, if i can choose, and yes, human can choose, i will choose. It’s not about being different. basicly, we all are the same as human beings, aren’t we? So, the basic things still rule. 

The "fairy tale" is not the way it was anymore.

yeah…. aku pulang.. (manda, jarang banget pake kata aku =p)

gw pulang besok insya Allah. minggu kemaren Perancis-Singapore tidak bisa diconsider pulang. jadi besok ke Jakarta baru gw pulang.  dari 3 tahun ini, baru sekali ini, gw sangat tidak bersemangat untuk pulang ke Jakarta. entah karena alasan yang mana dari sekian banyak itu. Huhuhu… tapi malas… tadi pagi chatting, belumsadar kalo besok adalah kamis - berarti gw pulang. huhuhu semua temen bilang met jalan, ati2 dsb. baru gw sadar. itu besok toh…besok Manda!!

excitement pulang kali ini sangat kurang, sampe aja barusan, menelpon rumah, dan akhirnya ngomong juga sama Arsa. semakin pinter ngomong aja. dah lama ga ketemu, tapi masih inget, dan dia mau jemput Ade dan Dita pake taksi dengan dua uang merah. uang merah itu uang 100rupiah lama. Huhuhu… Arsa dah kaya yah sekarang, dia juga mau naik pesawat gede lagi..

dan dari situ baru kepengen pulang… yup im looking forward to it!! besok malam udah di Jakarta.  baru sekali ini juga, i hope u guys wish me a safe journey and a pleasant stay back at home.=)

a friend asked me what’s the most favorite thing during past 6 months. i didn’t know what to answer. but the best thing i know for 6 months : lassi mangue.

it’s delicious! yummy….. yeah it’s another drink. lassi mangue de chateau d’eau.

it’s been 6 months. time goes fast. it’s been a really long holiday with the most of freedom it can be.

a lot of things happened. all of them will remain in our memory to be remembered and to be forgot. and the curiosity be left. when it’s over, it’s over. we all are back to our lives. be it there any changes in us, it’s a process.

every of us has our own memory and things to remember. be it sweet or bad. but i believe most of us has the most good ones. with two sides of most everything, good can be bad, and the other way around. it’s just a game of perspective which we choose.

there’s always been first things for every of us. some of the firsts were there in france, in compiegne, and anywhere in the last 6 months. it’s been amazing to know all of you guys who crossed my life for the 6 months. i should thank you all for the understanding, for the thought, for the patience, for the anger and laughter, for everything we share…. =)

does it exist?

before, i would try my best not to do any kind of lies, be it white or just lie for fun. but now, it has become part of my daily. hehe…. difficult to admit, but it’s necessary. i do think it’s for the good of the situation or condition. sometimes, it’s right. but i do know it’s just temporary. nothing is absolute. to make it lasts longer, i need to drag with another lie. and so on and on…

beginning of this week, i got a surprise. thought have the right one to share with, but nope it’s not. till last night, Seri told me the right response to give. two heads are better than one. it’s not a lie. yeah… in fact i did think bout that answer, but the 1st person told me differently. don’t take it personally, it’s just different perspective, you can accept or no it’s your choice. again.

anyway, but now, i just need to add some lies to be more convincing.

white lies are okay for better condition and taking in mind the third party.

ok, white angels do white lies…