Austrian Open 2006
A-Class-Tournament of the ETU
23/24 June 2006
Indonesian flag…!
Hope it won’t be only in the website, but also in the photos with the winner =p. Let’s see the match, see how he strives!!!
Le drapeau d’Indonesie.. J’espère que ce sera aussi dans les photos avec des gagneur. Bon courage =)
on the night with exams yet mind full of boring and longwinded things, quotes from desperate housewives =). said pointless movie, but i found it different way. 3 quotes, i think everyone has their own times to go, don’t they? just nice.
"i am stronger than what people give me credit for"
"if i could, what i warn them of the sorrow and betrayal that lying…..the trick is to keep moving forward…to let go of the fear and the regret that slows down and keeps us from enjoying the journey that will be over too soon. Yes, there will be unexpected in the road…"
"i wanna make sure you are okay….so i stayed in…i already waited whole my life for you, and i can’t wait a little longer. there is not so much rejection that i can take. so, i’ll do my best, but don’t be surprise one of these days you wake up, i am not here"
but still, my favorite : too short, and too late. and when gabby lost her child and friend of carlos came to make her happy by the baloon. sweet of them =)
a lot of things happen today, if it can talk bout itself, i am sure it will be longer than the day. not the one who choose, too bad that most of the thing, it’s not a good one to think, to tell or to know. but i just want to write…so for you that have announcement, ‘manda has updated her blog’ almost everyday…and get bored of it…hehe.. just skip this one =)
I changed my style of blog again, actually it’s insignificant. it’s just the childish side of me. Because of one reason which is really really not relevant, i directly changed my layout. Hope this one is better =p. I can’t tell what the reason is coz personally i keep saying myself that im stupid to take it as a reason. But i just cant stand it, my ego win. I change it. It did make me realize that i still can’t accept the condition made by those people. I really dislike it. A part of me keep telling me that I need totally go out from this circle made by them. But i can’t. Maybe because of the promise I made, or because of my belief that I already put really into the depth. I don’t like to look through it. Coz honestly, everytime i see into it, I can’t see anything on it. It’s just nothing. Teach me how to make it worthed, Show me that it’s worthed and Teach me how to forget it, the mistakes and the past. I can’t stop looking back if you are still back there. Teach me how to forgive of being faked and used. N teach me of not to be naive anymore to face the real world. It’s so difficult to accept the world. At most when it’s not like what I want.
I know it’s just about mindset. In fact few people are ok about it. And they keep go on with their lives. But not about me, I am not as great as them. On this matter, I can’t. Even if i had a apology, i can’t guarantee that it will be better now. But i do think i deserve that apology! Past wont happen again. I should have forgotten it. But it means totally out of the circle. The world total is too big. Should we just wait till the time. Maybe if nothing changes, you can read another title of my entries - i go out of the circle.
On top of all, teach me how to forgive the right people. It’s hurt to keep this.
I’d love to watch this. 21st June. -day of fete de music in France, Paris je t’aime out, waiting for exam ^^. 9 days to go!
on fera un exposé demain!
we’ll do presentation tomorrow…
wish me luck, it’s again in french. if this one turns bad, i will get something as a gift (?) like fajar said. nope, i dun wanna gift for this one, no thanks. anyway, the theme is interesting, concept of hospital for the handicaps =). we did make one. ok, im going to find the images for presentation now. wish us luck, the group of combination - manda, alima, elisa. indonesian, maroccon, libanian. pas de français.
manda lagi bingung
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Liking vs Loving (Rubin)
Both liking and loving are invisible packages of feelings, thoughts and behavioral predisposition within an individual. However, the contents of two are different. Love is composed of 3 elements : attachment, caring and intimacy.
Attachment refers to the powerful desire to be in other’s presence, to make physical contact, to be approved of, to be cared for.
Caring is the willingness to sacrifice oneself for the sake of the other person.
Intimacy is the union and bound between those two individuals.
What makes liking different from loving is its emphasis on evaluating the other person. That is, we like someone only if we think of that person as good intellectually and morally, and worth our respect. Scales measuring love and liking had been developed.
Companionate vs Passionate Love (Hatfield)
These two are the basic types of love. The first one is the affection we fed for those with whom our lives are deeply entouned. This is achieved only between partners who are able to positively reinforce each other’s intimate behaviors. While passionate is defined as a stake of intense longing for the union with another and a state of profound physiological arousal. This powerful emotion can be positive when it’s reciprocal or negative when it’s unnequited. It’s said impossible to do both.
Lovestyle and colour (Lee)
Primary colours are : Ludus (love as a game), Eros (love of an ideal person), and Storge(love as friendship). Like the colours, two can make the secondary colours : obsessive (Eros+Ludus), realistic and practical (Ludus +Storge), and dutiful and selfless love (Eros+Storge). Last one is mixtures, where all the elements are detectable.
Triangular Theory (Stemberg)
Three major components of love : intimacy, passion and decision/commitment. Intimacy includes self-disclosure through sharing emotions and stories. Passion involves erotic interest and sexual consummation. Commitment involves making a decision to stay with your partner and to defer this type of relationship with others. Having all the elements balanced, Consummate Love will exist. Perfectness is hard to get, combination of one or two elements exists bringing in these types of love :
Passion Intimacy Commitment
Infatuated high low low
Empty low low high
Romantic high high low
Companionate low high high
Fatuos high low high
Liking low high high
Non Love - - -
In a long term relationship, level of passion may go down after the peak but the level of intimacy keeps rising. And the two partners may emphasize in different elements at the same time. One may seek in passion, while the other one focuses in intimacy. Differences must be resolved for the relationship to work out.
Huhuhu…. it’s just from a piece of paper that I found when I arrange my notes =p. Make your choice in which type you are;).
I appreciate caring and commitment at most *grin*.
today, i attend Ms. A class….. hehehe like once in life. well, not really i attended few times. So, Ms. A is a french tutor, she replaces my real tutor who is not teaching cause of her pregnancy. She also gives additional class of French for Singaporeans and Koreans. Well, she is unique and she has her own style of teaching. In short, it’s not so *** for me. Hehe… So i, ok i admit, purposely skip some and, luckily, skip others accidentally. No matter what, I didn’t come. But today, it’s a last day before our final exam. And the topic was interesting and important for the exams and my french. I have to come.
So I did come this morning. I prepared myself for 2 hours class,with curiosity to the material of course. But in the end,,,, 2 hours only for 2 oral presentations. Not talking bout the subject at all. Just praying for the final. *die…die….*
Good thing that the presentations were good!! *clap clap* It’s an interesting topic : Culture and Fear. Fear, short word but it has a depth meaning. On what make us feel afraid of, what happen in our brain, type of fear, and…. how to maintain our fear. C’est bien… When the presentation is done, a question come up - What are you afraid of?
It goes around the table. I was in the other end of table - last one to answer. So, started with fear of injection or needle. Of the thunders that can make us shock. Afraid of women which I doubt! Hehe, it continues..one answer she is afraid of earthquake, experience in Japan and in her country. One afraid of violence coz she was in the disputing country that time and experienced seeing the guns *waw*. I started to think, what i am afraid of… Not needles, not women =p. Earthquake, violence? Well i have never been in that situation yet. but i am sure i don’t know what to do if it happens. but still, it’s not something i am afraid of in particular.
One answers, nothing in particular, but sometimes the fear rose - yupp it’s something that I experience. She described it very well, I do totally agree. It can rise starts with our imagination which logically can be controlled. It’s an excellent answer. I am not afraid of walking alone at night like that time. But if i know that it’s still not safe, i might be afraid. Or i am not afraid staying alone at airport, but finally I was after those people talking to me. But I do realize I am afraid of one absolute thing - death. But no, it’s so complicated to tell to the class.
Majority said that they were afraid of violence. Feel unsafe coz of the country condition i guess. Like people forcing you to give money. I think, it’s the feeling of unsecure. But it’s different from fear.
On my turn, "I am afraid of dog". Haha.. i tried to make it simpler, not the real thing coz the time runs out for 2nd presentation. I am afraid especially when they have their tongues out of their mouths.why? Coz they can lick you and it’s disgusting. Hehe…. I just don’t want to do abulition afterwards. Troublesome.
If i have attentive listener and more time, i will say i am afraid of not getting into the right way as i am still capable of, to be blamed and to be punished because of that. I am afraid of losing those who I love and care for whom I haven’t shown what I feel towards them. I am afraid of not doing my obligations as human being and prioritize fun and amusement instead. I am afraid to be selfish and always thinking of myself, without thinking what others can do with that opportunity that i waste. Coward huh? =)
Simple answer right now, that I am afraid of I cannot force myself to study for my exams and i fail all of them like the medians. That I have to come for jurial section and convince them. See, Manda, stop writing… !
So, tell me, what are you afraid of?
despite of everything happening recently, i have a good news today. it’s the result of the residence in singapore. i got hall 5, #28-3-550 with my new roomate, dika. all my roomates’ name end with a. and have the rythm i.a. - fika, gitta,fika, dika.hehe….
i am truly glad to get accepted into hall. last year before the scheme inactivated, i guess all of us will have the kiasi-ness to get as much point as possible. alhamdulillah, it’s not as bad as what i thought. and that limited ECA points can pass the cut-off ^^. thanks for the contributing parties to my eca point, including Giri =).
ppl feel a failure when their plans are not going as what they wants. seeing all unaccomplished targets even making it look worse. one look him/herself as a failure. that’s if someone is not lucky enough. other people with more effort and determination will see that they, themselves, are successful.
no matter how you see of your target, i don’t care. i think if one keep looking my target, it’s just about what he wants. and will bring him/her to self-focused. i think i should do the other way around, i want to list down all the things that i have right now, that i have never expected before. it’s like sudden chance but in fact, it’s something good and useful for me. this way i will be more thankful of the chance given. and ensuite, i will do the things suivant. of course to always enhance, because these things are motivating. this way would be better =).
things i really really never expected before
- i can study in NTU
- i still can go to the hospitals
- i don’t really burden my parents >_<
- i have the chance to live in discipline country =p
- i don’t mind taking public transport ^^
- i can speak french now, un peu.=)
- i can stay for a while in Europe -France
- i have good and understanding friends who always protect me and my limitation
- i can travel to Europe and Morocco =D
- i can meet new people
- i can know more about other culture in other side of world
- i, unconciously, convince people v_(- -)
thanks to you for reminding me always how lucky i am. yup, i am. it includes to have you around.
alhamdulillah.
a bouquet of flowers in front of a girls’ door. so sweet =). full of colours, it’s standing on the floor waiting to be picked.
do you think the girl will like it. yeah sure. in the middle of exam hassle, it will be a great saturday nite, i guess!! next, chocolate and ice cream? haha.. ruin the sweetness of it, but no, it’s still sweet.
